Bored!

Journaling. Kinda let it go for a long while. Only seem to want to post intermittently.
Lets see, how far back shall I go?Got laid off Jan, '08. Got rehired October, '08. Since then I can't seem to balance my budget and am 2 months behind on all my bills all the time. I seem to spend all my money on food. I guess that might mean I'm more depressed than usual. Seems like I just can't get a handle on my finances. F**ked up that is, ... I am?
I have dsl which is great or bad depending on how you view it. I spent much more time with my journals when I had dialup because that was easier to do. Now with dls I can watch youtube and vids on news sites.
I moved last July and now it is a year in this cottage ... cottage literally, how cool.
My mom spent three years no going to the doctor or taking medication and her diabetes and high blood pressure caught up with her last month and she had a mild stroke. This time she was aware of what was happening and it frightened her. She is now on meds and now that her mind is clearer she is bored. Its kind funny how she is now more aware. Its was scarier this time though. She really did have a bad episode.
Me, I just move along as always. Doing nothing and moving on nowhere. I get most of my news and entertainment off the web now and don't spend as much time watching tv as I used to.
I don't really have much to say. I think of a lot of stuff but ...
Well, that's it for now. Life is as effed up as ever and I wish for more ... but what?