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Anniversary

I have been on Blogger for 3 years now. This is my first foray into journalling, my first blog, my first realization that I could post my thoughts to the web.
It is my first love of the internet and the computer. I was on dialup then. The computer was my sister's old harddrive and it went the way of the dinosaurs. I am now on my third harddrive.
3 years ago I was finally able to get on the internet. I'm always slow to get to the next tech level and this was the place I found and loved.
It will always hold a special place in my heart.

Bored!

Journaling. Kinda let it go for a long while. Only seem to want to post intermittently.
Lets see, how far back shall I go?Got laid off Jan, '08. Got rehired October, '08. Since then I can't seem to balance my budget and am 2 months behind on all my bills all the time. I seem to spend all my money on food. I guess that might mean I'm more depressed than usual. Seems like I just can't get a handle on my finances. F**ked up that is, ... I am?
I have dsl which is great or bad depending on how you view it. I spent much more time with my journals when I had dialup because that was easier to do. Now with dls I can watch youtube and vids on news sites.
I moved last July and now it is a year in this cottage ... cottage literally, how cool.
My mom spent three years no going to the doctor or taking medication and her diabetes and high blood pressure caught up with her last month and she had a mild stroke. This time she was aware of what was happening and it frightened her. She is now on meds and now that her mind is clearer she is bored. Its kind funny how she is now more aware. Its was scarier this time though. She really did have a bad episode.
Me, I just move along as always. Doing nothing and moving on nowhere. I get most of my news and entertainment off the web now and don't spend as much time watching tv as I used to.
I don't really have much to say. I think of a lot of stuff but ...
Well, that's it for now. Life is as effed up as ever and I wish for more ... but what?

Dennis Grabosch 2

Dennis Grabosch

Thoughts and such ...

* I was reading another's Blogger and suddenly felt nastalgic for my own. I don't use this much anymore or visit. I still miss dearlis. She left without saying goodbye. I was naive enough to think that I had made a friend, but maybe I insulted/offended her with my last comment to her. It was not meant that way. Its just so hard to talk to someone else about what's really in your head or how you're feeling without saying something that comes out wrong or is taken the wrong way. I really liked her posts and how she wrote. I enjoyed ... OK, I'm just a fool ...
* I got the impression from some of her writing that she didn't like it that people were actually reading her Blogger. She seemed to want to keep her thoughts and writing private, which isn't exactly what Blogger is for. That's better left to the slow sites like LOJO and DeadJournal.
* I have all these journals. I never post in them anymore. I don't know. I find that the more flist you have, the more closed you become. Like in face to face encounters, I believe I have censured myself. Afraid that if I am completely open that I will be rejected. There are things inside our heads that we never mean to share. These are our private thoughts and fantasies, day-dreams and such.
* I just had a strange thought ... I miss me. *